Look at it as an opportunity. I am 53 years old, and i went through the same turmoil at age 43-44,(mid-life crisis is what some call it). Became an alcoholic and was a complete mess. Had to borrow money and what not. Slowly things picked up( as a freelancer) and stabilized myself .Quit drinking, and stopped being an a**hole

. Now at my age, i have realized that Money, fame and creature comforts are way over rated. Not because i can not make tons of money but because what i missed out on when i was part of the
rat-race. Today, i see the world differently, when i see my colleagues still running the rat race and making
some one else rich.( I work in the creative are in films and advertising, which is a pretentious a industry as it can get. I've had producer's & Director's tell me i should use a mac as it's a creative persons tool...



. Use an IPhone as all creative people use Apple products. My background has two degrees (One from Mumbai university & other from U.C.SF) both in Fine art and Illustration, with distinction. 10 year's working in the US (Film, Advertising and Gaming) Today I realized that it's not what you do but how one sell's themselves in the market.
SO whatever come's your way, make it fun and laugh at it. The worst is never as bad as you think. The best is never as good. Treat life as an experience and make the best out of it. I am sure none of this answer's your question but always Remember: The grass is always greener on the other side.